Sawyer Austin

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Back to it

After I wrote about not doing my 365 project anymore I got a lot of comments/messages that people were disappointed that I stopped. REALLY! I have people that read and like my blog! Holla...So I guess I'm going to start back up. I gotta say it was fun always trying to come up with a picture of some sort.

On another note my sweet Sekota got a little taste of grossness today on the way to drop off Xavier at school. Just minding his own business (we were at a stop light) he saw 2 young guys holding hands and partaking in some pretty serious kissing. Now before you say anything I have nothing against gay people. Personally I don't believe in it but what ever floats your boat. But not happy now that my 3 yr old asked me mommy why they do dat?? (kota words not mine) I don't know, I'm am however happy my husband wasn't there or he would have broke it down to much for Sekota. How do you all feel about that??? What would you do if your baby saw 2 same sex couples making out?? I want to be real clear that this was not just a little kiss, it was border line soft well you know. way too much even for me. I was a little flustered. Something funny always happens to us, not even kidding! To be a fly on our wall.

I do love me some Bucci Boys!

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Baby Steps

Off with the casts and one with the day/night braces. Xavier is such a trooper through this very long process of basically learning to walk all over again. This may sound crazy but in some way Michael has been able to see Xavier take his first steps (flat). Michael has missed so much of Xavier when he was little it's not even funny. When Xavier took his first two steps you could see in his eyes how proud he was of himself! He has a long road ahead of him learning to walk and PT but he will do it. Sekota being the great little brother that he is even helps by letting Xavier hold his hand while he walks. It is the cutest thing ever:) What can I say, my boys are awesome! I'm very blessed to have such great kids.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Check in please......

The past few days I haven't been myself at all, BUT I'm happy to say I checked back in today. After a phone call from the love of my life (Dani not Mike--hahaha) it made me feel a little better. However, I have stopped with the 365 project. I missed a few days and well just not into it anymore. I will be posting pictures here and there when I feel like it. Of course of the new house when we ever get moved in.

On another note, what's a mom gotta do to get her kids shot records??? I've been calling back and fourth and playing games. I guess I have to make a trip in-yay me. I'm pretty sure Xavier will be in 5th grade before I get them. Oh well what's a couple more years at home with his momma dearest?! Any who here's hoping all you lovely people have a great week.

P.S. Love you Dani
(no worries it's my sister in law and my hubby already knows where he stands!)

Friday, March 25, 2011

Angel in the Sky

Today marks the day 5 years ago of Sawyer's passing away. I always dread this day but am so thankful that my wonderful husband took yesterday and today off so we could spend it together. We haven't been together for Sawyer's birthday or this day, so it means the world to me that he's home. Thank goodness for him being home because I totally lost it today. In the past I never was able to let the tears flow or even scream because I had to take care of the kids alone. So today I did just that. I stayed in bed until noon then basically made myself get up and put a half smile on my face in front on my kids. We had to take Xavier to get new shoes for his braces (that will be another blog) so I had to get myself together for that. Thank gosh for sunglasses.

We got home later, I tried to eat but just wasn't that hungry so I made my way to bed at 5:30 and stayed until 8. I wasn't a good mommy at all today but I just needed to be away from it all. I think I was able to let it all go cause Mike was here. I never had that before and so the tears continued to fall. I've completely shut down to all around, I call home and put a smile on but deep down my heart is breaking. It's just not fair that I had to say goodbye to my sweet baby. WHY???? Five years later and the pain still feels very fresh.

My sweet little Sekota told me today that he didn't want Sawyer in the sky anymore. Talk about tears! We let the kids send balloons in the sky for Sawyer and my grandma said it best, when we finally are in heaven Sawyer will be waiting with a hand full of balloons. I'm so looking forward to that day!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Last Week

We took Xavier to his weekly appointment and were told one more week. Although it would have been great to hear that this was the last week, we're shooting for 20. He's at a 15 as of today and by next week it will be at 20 I just know it! Sekota picked red for Xavier to wear, so red it is. What a long couple of weeks with the casts on but wow my Xavier did so awesome. Through it all I swear that boy Always has a smile on his face. He's my sweet and perfect Bucci boy.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Tick Tock

You gotta love nights when it's after 7 and still no hubby.......poop

Weigh In Day

Jumped on the scale today and lost a pound since last Monday. I was hoping for more but I read that a healthy weight loss is 1-2 lbs a week so i guess I'm doing good. It feels so good to eat better and get in my workouts on a daily basis. My old booty is coming back one lb at a time. Anyone else out there trying to shed some lb's??? If so what's working for you?

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Found One

After a lot of looking around and asking people I finally found a primitive/country store! We went to downtown Sumner and there it was. Momma like! We made our way to the store and only after 5 minutes of looking around we had to leave:( One kid had tracks of chicken nuggets while the other kid peed needless to say I must go alone. At least I finally found one. Next time I go i'm pretty sure I'll be spending an entire paycheck. WHAT??? That stuff was too darn cute.

So ever notice how long it takes you to get your kids out of the car and into a store (like 20 minutes for me) and only stay for a few minutes??? Why even bother right?? I have two kids one that can't walk right now and the other that won't stay close, my bag and as I look back Mike has empty hands. What the heck is up with that?? Oh well it gets us out of the house for 5 minutes. Such is my life.

And that's what he thinks about that!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Great Day

Today was a great day! Hubby had off all day, we had lunch and went shopping. Perfect day. I'm a lucky lady to have such a wonderful husband.

Can you see it??? I already have some flowers starting to pop! Time to change my flag =)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Thoughts for Thursday

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

*I swear if my dogs have one more "fishy fart" I'm giving them away! Trigger had one the other night that got all over Xavier---it was GROSS. If you never had the pleasure to experience a "fishy fart" consider yourself lucky!

*I have to go back to the dentist in the am to have another mold done-so not looking forward to it. In fact I have bubble guts just thinking about it. Blah

*I can not stop watching HGTV--it's bad

*I wish I would have married someone on the food network channel---

*Yay my hubby has off Friday...Holla

*Just got a stack more of papers to sign for the house! Will it ever end??

*super proud of myself so far, my diet/workout this week has been going great.

*I need some peace and quiet

*trying to think what hair color to go next......any thoughts??

Have a fantastic weekend all =)

Isn't he cute?!!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Shamrock Green

Another visit to the doctor and although it was much longer, Xavier is still making great progress. We're hoping this is the last week for the cast and next week will be some sort of braces. Poor buddy bear was in some pain at this visit:( Hard to see your child hurt and nothing you do can make it better.  With St. Patrick's Day on Thursday we thought of course lets do green!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Getting my sexy back.......err something

I guess now since my youngest is 3 it's time to finish what I started last summer and get my booty back. Today is day 1 and I gotta say it's not so bad...I got this! I really enjoy walking outside but this is the rainy state so I had to settle for my Wii today. It was a good workout. Sekota even had a chance to get his workout on too! That's right he's a Mickey---we got big butts! Any who, my weigh in days will be Mondays. Wish me luck on this oh so fun journey to make my booty smaller!

Sunday, March 13, 2011


A few more pictures of the new house

This is the family room


Dinning stuff isn't ours

When we get moved in I'll do before and after photos.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Friday, March 11, 2011

Happy Birthday Sweet Sawyer

Five years ago today at 6:13pm our sweet Sawyer had entered the world 4 months early. Even though it's been 5 years the pain is still there and feels like it was just yesterday. I always dread the month of March, I call it my March Sadness. Still to this day I always question myself of what I could have done different. I'm still not ready for that door to be closed. To this day when we get asked how many kids do we have, I still say 3. We have 3 beautiful little boys.

All I have left of Sawyer are wonderful memories and a few items left behind on the day he passed. I put together a little mint box of clothes, hospital bands and his little hat and sometimes when it just seems to hard, I pick up the box and pretend I'm holding him. I feel so blessed that Sawyer was in our lives even though it was for two short weeks. He has taught me so much about myself and I'm thankful for that.

So here's to you sweet Sawyer on your 5th Birthday. We love you more than words can say and think about you everyday. Your brothers miss you and love you so much. Every time Sekota gets a balloon he lets it go so it flies up to you. It gets my every time. One of these days very soon we will finally meet again and I can't wait.

Your Mommy


Forgot to post my picture last night......

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Property Virgins No More

That's right, we bought a house last weekend! We always talked about buying here but never thought we would find one this fast. It's been a crazy ride with tons of papers to sign and our house inspection yesterday. Inspection day went well, happy to report that there is no major issues with the house. Big sigh of relief. Man we were a sight to see the day we put our offer in. I don't know about you but when I'm in a sticky situation and feeling nervous I can not help but laugh and my pits start to sweat. We signed so many papers that by the 50th one I forgot how to spell my name. Meanwhile Michael the graceful guy that he is tripped over my bag and broke one of the tables in the office! He wanted me to put it in my bag. No worries we told them he broke it. We close on the 19th of April but it will most likely be a lot sooner and I can't wait. It's hard to say that my kids will call WA home and not PA but I've learned along the way that it doesn't matter anymore where we live. My life is where my husband goes and I love this life we live. It's time to grow up and PA is not home anymore, WA is and I can honestly say I'm good with that. Shhhhhh........don't tell my parents!  Happy House Hunting. Our cherry has finally been popped we are no longer property virgins! Sorry but I've always wanted to say that.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011


I'm happy to report that Xavier had another great visit at the doctor's today.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Caught in the Act

If you know my husband that fool can fall asleep anywhere at anytime. And here's the proof!

He was working on the computer and BAM just like that fast asleep! So I had to jump on the chance to snap a picture =)

Saturday, March 5, 2011

New game

My little guy loves to play board games with me. That's what we do when we have "our time". I have to say although I love Candy land, after playing it back to back to back I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he picks a new favorite game.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Living The Cast Life

My poor Bucci Boy =( Tuesday will be two weeks that the casts have been on and he's going strong. Although it's been hard trying to keep him still for 15 hrs after they first go on, he's a trooper. He's been doing his favorite things, movies, playdough and playing in rice.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Thoughts For Thursday

I had to go to the dentist twice this week for jaw pain. Long story short I now have to wear a retainer. I feel like a 12 yr old minus the pimples!  On a great note Xavier went to have his casts cut and measured and he gained 10 degrees in just one week! Praise GOD:)

We are in the process of looking/buying a house and can I just say wow it's a long/hard process. I guess one good thing is hubby and I agree on the same ones! it's a start.

It's been a pretty boring week here but that's a good thing. I can do boring!

I did wanna say that I see alot of people wanting to shed some weight and one thing that has helped me in the past is a food journal. I found it very helpful:)

Hope everyone has a great day and awesome weekend =)

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

New Game

So we are always trying to find new things to do with the kids over winter. This is a favorite, I tie them up with a rope then spin them on our computer chair. Hours of fun and lots of giggles. No children were harmed in the process.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011


We made it through the first week with casts!!! Bring on week#2

Some People

I'm not going to go into details but some people really upset me. I can't understand why they think it's ok to say certain stuff. Well it's not ok and it's none of your concern. I'm proud of myself at the way I handled the situation and happy to say that I was the bigger person. My parents taught me well.