Sawyer Austin

Monday, January 31, 2011

Day 31

My husband's new don't even want to know how much it he paid!

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Day 29

It must be the weekend cause Michael is in his "weekend spot"!

Friday, January 28, 2011

Thoughts for Thursday a day late

It was a busy day yesterday so I didn't have a chance to do my thoughts so here we go a day late

* I got a bundle of baby stuff (really nice) and took it to our local second hand store for kids.....yeah not doing that again

* other places I've went before and dropped off you got store credit for clothes and money for anything other.....not this store

* don't get me wrong it's a cute place but way over priced for clothes coming from Wal-mart...all the clothes i took were from Gap/Old Navy

*so totally not doing that again

*they don't even have clothes to fit my kids...i feel like i need to have a baby just so i can use my credit!!

*stay tuned

*people in this state can not all

*ready for a girls night out in the worst on Sunday the hubby said i can go to a purse party! thanks daddy for your permission

*got great news on my hubby's school....he doesn't have to go!!! holla Xavier's leg surgery will be in the middle of it so they said he didn't have to go....who knew the Army had a heart??!!

*ready to curl up on the couch with my better half tonight and watch a movie

hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Day 27

My poor little tink has yet another eye appointment today:( Even though it's like the 100th one he always has a smile on his face! Bless his little pee-picking-heart:)

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Homesick x100

Most days are great and for the most part I haven't really felt homesick until today:( I was taking a short cat nap and missed a phone call my one brother. Can I just tell you how much both my brother's absolutely melt my heart. We all three are very close in age. Jeremy is 31, Jay is 30 and I'm 28. I have this message on my cell phone from my oldest brother when Sekota was born just saying how much he loves me and a big congrats! My son just turned 3 and I still have the message saved on my phone. Can't seem to erase it. So Jay left me a message today that I will do the same. It was just a simple message but just hearing his voice brought me to tears. I feel bad for those out there that don't share in those same feelings for their brothers/sisters. Sure we have had our ups and downs, I hate you and what the heck are you dating him/her for! I was that little sister that would hang up when girls called my house, and if you know my brothers that was an everyday thing.

It's the little things. I miss everything from home today.

I miss hearing my dad's loud truck pulling in the driveway

I miss my mom's awesome foot rubs

I miss the tree in the front yard

i miss my wonderful sister in laws

i miss Reese, Logan and Brooke

i miss getting blamed for EVERYTHING

i miss it all on Hillendale

the list could go on forever

but this is my life here now and it's a great one! Just feeling homesick today:(

Day 26

Thanks Aunt Dee-Dee for my big hop hop ball! (in the words of my now 3 yr old!)

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Nothing Like Your First

I was watching a lovie dovie movie last night (Dear John for the 100th time) and just watching it made me miss all the firsts you have when you start to date! All the silly questions that get asked like: whats your favorite color, food, middle name, how many kids you want, holding hands, and waiting for the first kiss!! The butterflies you got when they call you and THE FIRST KISS!!!!!! I will say that being an Army wife I still very much have some of those feelings. When Mike gets back from deployment I always get a ton of butterflies, even when I would hear his voice on the phone for 5 minutes! Wow to go back and experience all those firsts with my husband I would do in a heartbeat. Now when we see couples in public who clearly can't keep their hands off each other we say yep their not married cause married people don't act like that!!! Anyone else miss starting out and dating, just experiencing all the great firsts??? The good old days!!!

Now the questions I get asked are hey honey can you pop this crater on my back! Really Mike???? Or sitting down after the kids go to bed and laugh at each others farts!!! Be jealous!! HA HA

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Day 22

I love how my husband, this big strong Army guy can become a puddle of mush with the kids! Michael's hobbies at home include: blowing bubbles, scrap booking, ring around the Rosie and he does a mean patty cake!

Friday, January 21, 2011

It's a Crosswalk People!

So I took my youngest to Wal-Mart tonight for his birthday, yes I know what 3 yr old wants to spend his birthday at Wal-mart....mine that's who! Any who, I park the car like 5 miles away and we come up on the crosswalk when this car out of the blue just keeps on going FAST. I stopped thinking OK this fool isn't going to see us and so I just stood there waiting............he had the balls to honk at me and my baby who only wants to get his hula hoop for his birthday! I was pissed at this point. back in the day I so would have gave him the bird or said something but I've grown up since then and instead walked very slowly and pissed him off. HA HA HA guy! My sweet little Sekota (after we got to the door) looked back and yelled THANK YOU. It was a priceless moment. Good times great oldies.


Who would have thought my Valentine baby would come right after Xavier's birthday?? Well if you know me you shouldn't be surprised!! I prayed and prayed for Sekota not to be born on the 20th and well he wasn't! To our surprise he came out on the 21st at 10:13 pm beautiful and crying like it was his job. I wanted a little girl so bad but am so blessed to have Sekota here. He has taught Xavier so much and takes very good care of his older brother!!! Here's to you fat boy, mommy and daddy love you so much:)

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Thoughts for Thursday

What a great day:) Today my baby turned 6! We had a little birthday party for him, which turned out wonderful. I made the cutest cupcakes (under the sea), had pizza and of course a lot of gifts.

just a few thoughts and a few pictures of Xavier's party

* went to Wal-mart to pick up some last minute things for the party and come home to realize I got a #5 candle instead of 6........I guess I just don't wanna let go

*it was hard having his party without more family but it was so nice having my Aunt and Uncle here!!!!

*still can't get over my baby is 6

* another birthday tomorrow! Sekota turns 3.....crazy right?!

enough thoughts now for some pictures

yes I did the cupcakes and icing from scratch, they were yummy!

that's my 6 yr old:(
My Bucci Boy :)


Today is the big day that my baby turns 6! I can't believe it's been 6 yrs since you came into my life and brought us and so many people joy. Happy Birthday you little stud. xoxxox

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Pissed off Army wife

This post is gonna be nothing but complaining on how much I dislike the Army. BEWARE.........

So my husband has to go to school for basically 2 months and yeah I'm kinda pissed off. I'm not pissed that he has to go but am pissed at the timing. We were told that he wouldn't be doing his school for awhile. SURPRISE.....weird huh, I just love how the Army pulls the BS with us. This is where that feeling like we're puppets (dead ones at that) on a string comes into play. Yes I know that I'm lucky that he's home and we have him but we've done the deployments, really I've been there and done that and have a t-shirt. I'm not that Army wife that loves the military, in fact I hate it. Don't get me wrong I'm very proud of Michael and all he's done for us but REALLY I'm over the BS. And as far as the Army taking care of families ha ha ha ha, I guess that's just our crap luck cause we seem to always get screwed over in some way or other.

So now we have to put looking/buying a house on hold along with Michael missing out on some special days with us. Yeah go Army........Sometimes, well everyday I daydream of Michael having a "normal" 9-5 job and knowing he's always gonna be around. Wishful thinking I guess. So on that note I'm considering packing up my kids and dogs and going back home until he's done. I know alot of other military wives would never do that but can I just say how hard it is to handle my son with whom has autism and  my crazy full of energy 3 yr old. Yeah not for me kids. I have no problems saying that. Just hoping that nothing else comes up to piss me off even more.

Pissed Off Army Wife

Day 19

HA HA.....I love this picture! He was sound asleep and just like that he woke up said a few words and then made this face.  Classic Sekota

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Day 18

Hard to believe by the end of the week I'll have a 6 and 3 yr old:( All you moms who have little ones enjoy the baby moments because it's so true that time flies when you have kids.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Day 17

Must be the life! ahhhh to be them for a day and sleep all day long!!!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

My how times have changed

I was just thinking wow have times changed since I was little. T.V. has changed so much from when I was little and watched it. I grew up watching Alf, Fresh Prince, Full House, Roseanne, Family Matters, My Two Dads just to name a few. Now a days (which FYI-I don't watch much and if I do it's not what they play now) it's T.V. shows about same sex couples, alot of violence, and shows making fun of other people. Just to clear this up no I don't agree with same sex couples but I don't think bad of them, it's not my job to judge them. Oh and wth I can't even watch commercials without it being something sexual. I feel like I have to change channels quick or cover my kids eyes when they show those Victoria secret ones. I mean it's just gross. Maybe I'm just getting old who knows but it seems to be a lot of junk on T.V. Just curious what anyone else thinks??? Do you like the shows that are on right now or not as much as you did when you were growing up??

Day 15

Was not thrilled at all that he had to go to school!

Friday, January 14, 2011

Day 14

This is our Christmas card we got by the little girl we sponsor:)

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Thoughts for Thursday

It's Thursday so time for my thoughts! Let's go

*so happy that I get my husband home until Tuesday

*my dogs love to lick each other, they do it all day long

* we go through so much toilet paper it's not even funny

*love Thursdays when we eat dinner with my aunt and uncle:)

*Xavier had a wonderful day at school today!!

*signed up for a Valentine swap on another blog and I'm pretty excited about it

* busy week ahead with two birthday parties for the kids

*I was watching the news tonight and broke my heart when this little girl with special needs had her wheelchair stolen from her ***REALLY*** pisses me off

*gonna try to see a movie alone this weekend can't wait!!

Hope you all have a wonderful week:)

Day 13

Just to give you an idea of how small he really was. Sad thing is he was about 3weeks old in this picture.......this is nothing what he looked like when he was first born. This was the first time my husband was able to hold his hand:)

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

January Miracle

So almost 6years ago (January 20, 2005) we were blessed with a beautiful little miracle. Xavier Timothy Bucci was born 4months early. As I look back at pictures and revisit all the memories, I think to myself how truly blessed we are. The doctors told us not to expect much that he may not even make it through the night. HAHAHA in your face doctors who didn't believe. My baby will be 6 in a week!! Although Xavier has had many ups and downs and he does have Autism, that doesn't stop him from being a happy and perfect little man. I can't even put it into words how proud I am of Xavier. He's been through most things in his 6 years of life than most people face in a lifetime. He has such a great attitude about life and all he's been through. He has touched the lives of so many people who have come into his life and taught us so much about just being happy. Sure we have some hard days, mainly because he is nonverbal but it never stops him. He is in every sense of the word STRONG. How lucky I am to be called his mommy. So here's to you Xavier for teaching me about life and no matter what life throws at you, you always have a smile on your face. A beautiful one at that. I love you so much and love the little man you are:)

Day 12

Who does this??? I'll tell ya, my husband! I go to sit down and bam it's empty. REALLY Mike??? Is it that hard to put a roll back on? grrrrrr...............

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Day 11

He makes eating popcorn gross. And YES this is how he really eats it. Our first date we went to see the movie Troy and because of the way he eats popcorn that's why he didn't get any on our first date! (he didn't want to scare me away) I told him that would have changed everything!!!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Saturday Night Movie

These are the times I missed him the most. There's nothing like being curled up on the couch with a good movie (and popcorn of course)!! It just doesn't get any better than this.

So maybe the next chance you get, try to have a movie night and have some cuddle time. It's the best:)

Day 8

Sweet Sister in Law

How blessed am I to have two of the sweetest sister in laws??!! This is a picture of my other brother's wife Angelyn. She is so sweet and very caring. When I was pregnant with Sekota, Ang would make sure that on days my dad couldn't get me to the doc she was right there to help. Sweet story: when Mike was deployed last year Ang showed up at my mom's house with a cake for me on our anniversary!! I'm very lucky to be blessed to have such a sweet sister in law in my life. Love you Ang:)

Friday, January 7, 2011

Day 7

My Sidekick

This here is my other half (besides my hubby), she's married to my brother Jeremy. Although the first time I saw her there weren't sparks. I mean who the heck wears high heels to camp in???? Oh and who dumps a big bucket of pine cones in the front yard that you just picked up???? Still trying to get over that one!! But any who she has got me  through some of the hardest times of my life. I lived a house away from her last year while Mike was deployed. It was an adventure.....from skidding on icy roads to hitting a mailbox to going to the mall with 5 kids just for subway to a house fire, Dani TRYING to put the fire out hahaha, and who could forget our walk for our sweet Sawyer, but basically just trying to get through the winter together (alive), it didn't matter cause I had her to get through it with. So cheers to you Dani, my one and only Queen to my Dairy:)

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Thoughts for Thursday

What a busy couple of days! So glad it's almost the weekend, which brings me to my thoughts for Thursday. Here we go.

not happy at the fact that our landlord is coming today to do a walk through, not that my house is dirty but 1-it's close to dinner time when they come and it was very short notice when we found blah for that

my son decided to wake up from 3-7 this morning! yep good stuff, needless to say I had to keep him home from school, maybe that was his plan

my hands are so dry from washing them so much, I can't stand it (I'm a germ freak but getting better)

thinking about going to the movies this weekend by myself!! Can I just say how much that excites me.

so I totally ordered those pj jeans that you see on TV! listen I don't dress up....well sometimes I stay in my pj's so I thought they would be I said before it's the small things.

I made the best apple muffins the other day! wow I'm loving this baking thing :)

that's all for now

Day 6

 Scout and the warm clothes! Every time I fold clothes my dogs try and hurry to climb in the basket to soak up some of the warmth!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

To work or not to work???

I've been throwing around the idea of going back to work (weekends only) these past few weeks. Not that we need money, I guess it's just a way of me getting out and doing my own thing. Sometimes I feel like I get lost in everyone else that I have nothing for myself. If that makes sense......My husband says he's in it to win it (meaning he'll handle the kids when I'm gone) with the kids. Yeah......that's another thing that makes me a little nervous. I do everything for them, so not  sure how the hubby will handle it! I just feel like it's time for me to do something on my own. Is that selfish???? Should I wait til Sekota is in school then start working???  So many decisions. I wanna be in high school again, where my biggest worries were will I have a zit for picture day, will I have my period in gym class (man I always had it for gym glass full on), or my favorite and you know this happened to you, when you had to do a #2 at school and would try to hold it all day til you got home cause there was NO way you would poo in school! Wow good time kids:) Lots to think about.

Day 5 Baby Blanket

My sister in law is having a baby in June so I've been having way too much fun making things for her! I made hats, diaper cakes, wipe covers, burp clothes and finally a very cute no sew tie blanket!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Puppets on a string

So I can't help feeling a little nervous that my husband will deploy again. Although he just got home in August they are already talking about a future deployment. REALLY??? No REALLY???  Not sure if I could handle another long deployment. The last one took all of my being just to make it through. I don't think people can really understand the feeling of having your husband leave and not knowing when you'll talk to him let alone see him again. It's the worst feeling I've ever felt.

I feel like we are the Army's puppets and they are just pulling the strings. It's so overwhelming at times.

He just went back to work today after being home for 2 great weeks and I found myself very upset to let him go back. I'm not that wife who HAS to have him by my side but for some reason lately I need him with me. I guess it's that fear of him leaving again. I hate using the word "normal" but I wish we had a normal life. I want to have our own house, no more renting. Grrr....I hate renting, it's like throwing your money away. He has almost 14 years in so I'm just praying that the last years he stays safe at home with us where he belongs.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

picture project

The start of my 365 project

My Kota-bug

great things to come in 2011

I've finally made my New Years resolution! Very excited that I finally came up with one that I'm feeling pretty awesome about. It's the little things:)  So I've decided to take more time for myself! Getting my hair and nails done more, taking LONG bubble baths and not feeling guilty about it. Just making myself feel good anytime I want too! I know it seems like no big deal for some people but I truly do not spend the time I should on myself. I mean when I take Xavier to school I barely have time to get out of my pj's!!! Or going to Wal-mart in my sweatpants (which will be hard). I'm so not that girl who wears makeup or has to have that perfect outfit, not saying that there's anything wrong with it...I'm just a tee shirt and jeans kinda girl. Just hoping to add a little more pink in there this year:) What are some of your resolutions for the New Year????