6 yrs of wonderful

Tonight was open house for Xavier and I went with a smile on my face and left with tears in my eyes :( I just can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that my little baby will be in school ALL day long. Although we had a great meeting with his teacher and I'm very excited for him to take this next step it's still a very hard pill to swallow. I feel like I'm choking on it to be quite honest with you.

As we're having the meeting she said well I'm sure he's gonna do great come TUESDAY! That right there is a red flag. His class wasn't suppose to start until the 8th, so I still had plenty of time to cry and feel bad for myself. Now he goes to school in like 5 minutes!!! I can't breathe!!! Hold Please....................................................................................................................................................................................................


being a parent IS not for the weak!! I know I'm a baby, well this is my blog and I'll cry if I want to......tear tear.  At one point in the meeting I so bad wanted to throw in there "oh yeah BTW if anyone hurts my baby or does anything I'll kill you"! Too much??? Listen I know as parents we all have those feelings of protection for our young but man it seems so hard to send my little guy off to school that is still nonverbal. I have to just pray and know that when I can't be around to protect him that God is always with him. That definitely helps me but still wish I could be a fly on the wall.

So to sum this all up these past 6 yrs with my baby have been the best. I was never ever in a hurry to see him go to school or ever get older than 3 but such is life. So come Tuesday I'll have my tissues, chocolate, and yes potato chips and I'm throwing one heck of a pity party.